Change

Oh goodness... if you presented me with change 6 years ago or even 6 months ago I would've freaked out. Reason being? I was completely and utterly insecure to welcome new prospects in my life without my pre-approval. Meaning, I was scared to let my vulnerability, insecurities, and lack of strength be perceived through others. Fast forward to today and I can say that change is a completely beautiful, natural, healthy part of life. For example, caterpillars change into butterflies, crushes grow into long term loves, and an egg can turn into a chick :) Ok, enough of the funny business but in retrospect we need to begin to stop and think about the little things in life.

Change, in its entirety, became a big focus for me when I turned in my resignation two weeks ago. It took on a new attitude and observation that I have regrettably neglected thus far. I now believe that change effects each individual differently. For example, one of my colleagues became aware of my new position, those that had felt optimistic and friendly immediately turned rude and vindictive. I, of course, immediately took this as a personal attack but then I began to reflect on how I personally would react to the situation. The old Jenna would've reacted in a negative attitude  - irritated, self absorbed, and one sided. The new Jenna, on the other hand, would be sad to see that a friend was leaving, ask why they were leaving, and encourage them all the best. Why the change? Through all of my own personal experiences, I have been taught that the more a person tries to take control or be in control of a situation, the more the negativity is portrayed and the lack of trust in the Lord. It was very evident in myself months ago and happily wished those thoughts good-bye!! Although I am constantly trying to help others, I have learned that I can not help those that have not helped themselves. Change is inevitable and the way we approach new situations determines our attitude, happiness (or lack there of), and enthusiasm on the outcome. I have now preached, and shown through actions, that I welcome change with open arms. Change is a way that God is testing ourselves and how we can improve as individuals. Personally, if those approached with change react with negative attitudes then they have chosen to not let the Lord into their hearts to grow further as a follower. I must admit, I was one of those individuals for a long period of time but I am so gracious that I can see change as a strength and opportunity to grow as the person the Lord has envisioned.

On a final note, I have been flooded with love and happy tears as I've said my good-byes to my families at AVC this week. My personal goal to help others, no matter what, has been evident as I've been blessed with sincere words of wisdom and cards stating "see you later" rather than "good-bye". Simple actions such as those are the reason I became a SLP :) I am excited about my new endeavor at Aegis Therapies and feel so humble knowing that all of my AVC families have given nothing but blessings of happiness and promises to keep in touch. See, change is good! :)